Broken Hallelujah

First of all, I am not a Blogger, writer, or expert on any topic! Just felt the need to disclose that before I started writing! I love to blog for the simple purpose of journaling our life and kiddo stuff to look back on and remember later! 

With that being said, I felt the need to share what was on my heart! A couple weeks ago I was driving down the road and for some reason there was no chaotic noise coming from the back seats! :) (not normal I know)  I was listening to the radio, and the song Broken Hallelujah by The Afters came on. I had never heard the song before and the lyrics quickly caught my attention. When we got home, I googled the lyrics so I could read them. 

Broken Hallelujah

I can barely stand right now.

Everything is crashing down, 

And I wonder where you are.

I try to find the words to pray.

I don't always know what to say,

But you're the one that can hear my heart.

Even though I don't know what your plan is,

I know you're making beauty from these ashes.

I've seen joy and I've seen pain.

On my knees, I call your name.

Here's my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto, 

I raise these empty hands to you.

Here's my broken hallelujah.

You know the things that have brought me here.

You know the story of every tear.

Cause you've been here from the very start.

Even though I don't know what your plan is,

I know you're making beauty from these ashes.

When all is taken away, don't let my heart be changed.

Let me ALWAYS sing hallelujah.

When I feel afraid, don't let my hope be erased.

Let me always sing hallelujah.

When I read the lyrics to the song I had just listened to, my heart became so convicted. There are so many going through a season that seems difficult. I have friends that have lost babies, lost jobs, struggling with family situations, financial issues that have them feeling crippled in life, and so many more things going on that we don't even know about. 

We all have seasons to go through in life. There will be great times, good times, and times that seem unbearable...but we should still praise God through the storm. He desires our love, he wants us to depend on him, he craves intimacy with us. The Lord never promises life will be easy, but he DOES promise to be there for us in EVERY season. Even when our praise is broken, we need to give it to him. When we aren't sure what to pray, he knows our hearts. 

There is Hope in Jesus. He makes beauty from our ashes. 

Romans 8:28 says, "We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him."

"At present you may be temporarily harassed by all kinds of trials. This is no accident. It happens to prove your faith which is infinitely more valuable than gold." 1 Peter 1:6-7

We will all have trials. The Bible says to lean on The Lord in times of trouble, let him know you trust him, give him your Broken Hallelujah. 

Life Lately!

It is so cold here and sickness is everywhere!!! We have spent so many days cooped up in our pajamas playing, and I have loved every minute of it! (Mostly every minute :)) 

Lucy Jane is so creative and learning so much! She loves to paint, draw, color, play babies, board games, and her new found love is Netflix! 

I told her the other night she couldn't watch a certain movie on netflix because it was rated PG, and I hadn't seen it yet! I said, "Lucy Jane, you are "3"! You can watch a movie for 3 year olds!" She was so serious and looked at Rich and I and said, "I am not 3, I am 14, and I am a big sister!!! I can watch it!"

I couldn't even believe I was having to have the conversation with her, but her replies keep me rolling! 

She had taken what we both thought was a dollar bill out of my purse and put it in her pocket to take to school! Her teacher gave it back to me the next day, saying her music teacher saw it and held it for her! I asked Lucy Jane why her music teacher had to take her money away during class? (Expecting a response about her playing with her money, and she should not have been) oh no! She said , "oh mom! She's a mean one!" 

So witty for such a little thang! :)

Kaylor is everywhere!!! Into everything!  He is cutting his top two teeth and it breaks my heart! He LOVES playing with his sister! :) he will just leap out of my arms into hers with the biggest grin and squeals! I pray they always love each other and hold their sibling relationship as so very important! 

Lucy Jane got a much needed trim, and Kaylor got his hair styled!!!

Big 10 Month old!

Playing Dr. With Luke! He's such a good sport! 

These two are trouble!!!

Lucy Jane is really ready for the cold weather to go away!!! She wants to go outside and play!

Love her imagjnation!

Enjoying the days at home, but excited about Spring time to play outside again! Love these sweet babies and SO thankful to be able to spend my days with them!